Life, sometimes, is a consuming fire. Torn between the constant decisions, deadlines, toddlers needing to go “big gerl potty”, misbehavior addressed, the timer beeping, prioritizing relationships (unfortunately), and it just keeps going. Too many decisions, too many people needing me.
I’m feeling slightly overwhelmed, overworked, and despite being surrounded by people; frankly, I feel alone. Not because I am alone, or because people haven’t been there. But, mostly because even when I’m with people my brain is working at the next to-do list or daunting task that needs completion. I haven’t been able to turn it off.
Feeling alone is never a good thing.
It’s where icky thoughts and doubt creep in. It’s where sin gains momentum.
In the quiet places of my soul this morning, despite the children running around me and lonely aches, I heard a still small voice saying to me, “Loneliness is caused by lack of focus”
And I was reminded of a Father’s prayer for his son:
“And give my son Solomon an uncluttered and focused heart so that he can obey what you command, live by your directions and counsel, and carry through with building The Temple for which I have provided.” 1 Chronicles 29:14-19 (MSG)
And it became my prayer,
Give me an uncluttered and focused heart that I may obey your commands, live by your directions and counsel and to carry on and worship you with the whole me, not a distracted lonely me. Amen.
And, I’m praying it for you today, that you to would find focus, to focus on the one important thing, that your loneliness would be soothed by the balm of the Most High. That you, like me, despite the noise in your life would as Jesus says, ““Here’s what I want you to do: Find a quiet, secluded place so you won’t be tempted to role-play before God. Just be there as simply and honestly as you can manage. The focus will shift fromyou to God, and you will begin to sense his grace.” Matt 6:6 (MSG)